Good Bye...

I hardly slept the night before leaving Motherly Care. I spent half of it packing as I wanted all to be ready in the morning. I planned to leave around 2pm and arranged taxi for that time. I wanted to have enough time in the morning to say "good bye" properly to the children and to distribute most of the things I still had in my room for them - I wanted every child to be given sthg as I knew if I just left it like that, most of it would just end up in the store room...


With Isack, Samson, Robert, Hamza & Washira - they stayed with me until the car started to move 

I got up in the morning with a heavy heart. I felt absolutely terrible about what was happening and the pain in my side was back again. I prepared the things I wanted to give out to the kids and went to each class giving every child a present and telling them that I was leaving and wasn't sure when I would be back. It was a very sad time.

Juliet with her friends in Form 2

When I was almost finished (only 1 class remaining), I was asked by the manager of the home to come with him and talk things over. Of course he tried to convince me to stay and denied ever saying anything bad, even though I told him the information I had was coming from very trustworthy people and I had also seen emails that were sent to some of my friends. Still, he was denying it all... The pain was becoming worse and worse and I had to go back to my room and rest. I couldn't even walk properly - 2 girls were helping me to get back to my room...

with Jacintha, Gloria, Sophie and Liz

John also called me to let me know that he was able to come sooner and would be there by 12.30. I had to make sure that I was ready by then and so were the children that he was collecting. When he arrived the founder of the home also arrived and they were discussing what happened but I did not want to take part in it - firstly because I really wasn't feeling well and secondly I knew that she would deny everything, same way the manager did...


Juliet with Catherine & Jacintha

Juliet was running around saying good bye to her friends and boys were coming to see her brother off. All of the 3 children that were coming with me were really liked and popular amongst the Motherly Care children. It was a very sad moment but at least Juliet managed to get some photos with her friends.


Juliet with Jacintha, Gloria, Sophie and Liz

 The children were really sad to see us go and it was breaking my heart to leave them. I can't really put in words how I felt at that time. After short while we set off in the taxi loaded up to the limit... there were 3 children and 3 adults (incl. the driver) and so much luggage that some of it was on the back seat... me and Juliet's brother were sitting at the front while Juliet, Eveline, John and 2 large bags at the bag (Juliet was sitting at Eveline's lap and we were all very squashed... It was travelling in a truly African way!



Juliet with her best friend Jacintha

 We went to another small orphanage where the Director agreed to host us.

I don't know when, if at all, I will be back in Ruai. I sent an email to the MCCH Director letting her know that I have transferred the final amount of the money that was in the UK account and that I am not expecting any more to be paid in.

So this is the end of my experience with Motherly Care. I am still staying in Kenya and will carry on writing about my African adventures in a new blog...

As a final word in this chapter I would like to say a big THANK YOU to all those that supported my efforts in helping the MCCH children and also those that have shown tremendous trust in me when things started to go wrong, especially Vik, Stephen and Janet, Sonja and Fleur and many others. I am very lucky to have so many great friends.


My boys - I really miss them...



Challenging times

When I got back from Mombasa I heard from John (the person that rescued Juliet) that there was a school in Kiambu that was willing to take her on despite her exam results being below the required level as they sympthied with her situation. However, we did not know that school and had to go there to check where exacly it was, what their faclities were like and also the costs involved. So on Monday I travelled with Juliet back to the primary school she attended to collect the leaving certificate and also the original document with the exam results from the children's home she was staying at previously. It was quite a hectic day as we had to get to Thika and back to Ruai before it got dark - it is not safe at all for me to walk around after dark where Motherly Care is located... After some initial challenges we managed to get it all done in good time and on Tuesday I was able to travel to Kiambu with John to visit the school. Again - it was a long journey, across whole of Nairobi (it takes almost 2hrs in traffic to get to town from Ruai and then over an hour from town to Kiambu...). We met with the owner of the school and she was a very nice lady. We also saw all the facilities, classrooms and the dorms. It all seemesd well and I was certain that Juliet would be happy there. The school is situated in a rural area, it is very quiet and lots of green around. I took some photos so Juliet could get an idea of where she would be schooling.

After that I did not manage to do very much as I was getting very stressed over the situation at MCCH. There have been some issues for a while - mainly about money, not getting enough of it more precisely - but I was convinced that it would all get sorted out one way or another and this is why I did not mention it before. I just wanted to concentrate on my time with the children but even that was disrupted because of the money issues. I was feeling worse and worse and had to stay in bed for few days as I could barely walk because of the pain... I was very worried I would end up in the hospital and I really wanted to avoid it.

While I was sick the children were popping in to see me and it was always making me feel better :) But in the end there were told not to come, I dont know why. However, they still kept coming even if it was for a few minutes and I really appreciated it but at the same time i did not want them to get into trouble.

When I finally felt better on Monday I decided to go to town as I had had enough of staying in the room for such long time and needed to get out of there. I went to meet with a friend and we discussed the issues of Motherly Care. I was also told some more things that apparently the management of MCCH was spreading around about me - none of it true! It was then I felt I had no choice but to leave and started to prepare for that. I asked another friend if I could stay with them while I am getting myself organised again and they agreed. I planned to leave on Saturday as on Wednesday I needed to go to court with Juliet and then had some mtgs on Thursday... I was going back to Ruai in a better mood as I knew the problems were coming to an end... However, what I heard when I got back to Motherly Care made me excelerate my plans rapidly. I called my friend and told him I could not stay here until Saturday and I wanted to leave the next day. We agreed it was the best way forward given to what I'd just been told. I dont want to dwell on this whole situation and therefore will not go into details but I am still disturbed by all that happened, I never expected these people to turn on me like that while I was helping them. I packed my bags that night and organised for a taxi to pick me up.

I also agreed with John, who wanted to move the 3 children he rescued from Motherly Care to another place, that I would help him transport the children and their luggage since I was already paying for the car.

Mombasa and North Coast with Juliet

Before I even met Juliet, I heard a lot about her and the story about her difficult childhood. I am not going to go into details as I want to respect Juliet's right to privacy. All I can say at this point that every time I think about what she has been through, it gives me shivers. When I heard the bits and pieces of what happened to her, I already decided that I wanted to look after her myself and do all I can to ensure that from now on she is happy and gets the opportunities she deserves, i.e. secondary education.



Juliet with her sister, a cousin and a friend

I am working closely with the person that rescued Juliet and whose organisation has the custody over her. She is not an orphan - she has both parents but she is what we call in Kenya a "vulnerable child". And because she has a family, even if we are trying to protect her, we need to ensure that she doesn't loose contact with her relatives. This is why I offered to take her to Mombasa at Xmas to visit her mother and the rest of the family.

Juliet was very excited about the trip and we were both really looking forward to spending few weeks together and getting to know each other better (although by the time of the trip we were already good friends :)


Mombasa - Juliet with Fahima

 As I am not a Kenyan, and I am white, I cannot just take a child on a trip. We travelled accompanied by a letter from the organisation that has the custody for Juliet and the morning after we arrived in Mombasa we went straight to the Children's Office to let them know that we were travelling together and what the purpose of the trip was. The DCO (District Children Officer) was very helpful and even agreed to our trip to the north coast - he gave us another letter to confirm that we were allowed to travel together and that I was Juliet's guardian for the duration of the trip. This came very handy the following day when we went to visit Juliet's mother for the second time and the pastor from her church was trying to threaten me with the court, police, etc... All that just because I was white and they thought they would be able to get some money out of me - but it did not work. The time I spent in Kenya made me even tougher than before and now I am more aware of those just trying to use you or guilt-trip you into helping.



Juliet with her cousin and the great-grandfather

We also went to visit Juliet's great-grandfather and the rest of her mother's family. They were all happy to see her and I was happy that they did not try to get money out of me ;) Again - there has been many issues with that family before but I don't want to write too much about it - again as I don't feel it would be fair on Juliet.


Juliet with a double catch on her first try :)

However, when she was rescued, Juliet agreed to produce a documentary about what happened to her - so this will be ready in a couple of months and then I will be able to share more about what happened. Until then I don't feel it would be right for me to write about it.

Juliet made some new friends in Mombasa and it was really great for me to watch how much more relaxed she became.



After Mombasa we travelled to Lamu (I wanted her to enjoy her holiday as much as possible before starting the secondary school at the end of Jan) and although she was sad at first to leave the friends she got in Mombasa, she had great time and actually didn't want to go back to Mombasa until it was time to head back for Nairobi.



We had great time together, spend many hours talking - a lot about what happened to her (and it is a very complicated story) so now I know the whole situation - and just having fun - walking on the beach, visiting friends, going fishing... We even sailed to Kiwayu (another island 7 hrs away by boat from Lamu), this was Juliet's first ever holiday and I wanted her to really enjoy it.



Juliet relaxing in Kiwayu

 Of course, when we arrived in Lamu we also had to report at the Children's Office and present the letter we got in Mombasa. All went well here as well and we were just asked to come in again at the end of our trip so they could give us a letter confirming that we did report to the office so we could show it again in the office in Mombasa.


You can never have enough cake!



Juliet made many friends in Lamu and she soon became known as the "daughter of the muzungu" (daughter of the white person). And we really did become as close as if she were my real daughter. I feel really connected to her and I am convinced that there was a reason why we got to know one another. And this is why I am determined to protect her and to ensure she gets all that she needs.



We were both very sad when it was time to go back to Nairobi. We had to have a stop over in Mombasa again - firstly so Juliet could see her mother again and also so we could visit the Children's Office yet again. Once more all went well and we set off for Nairobi.



Sunset in Kiwayu

While we were at the coast the KCPE exams results (exams at the end of primary school, the results determine which secondary school the child can attend) were announced. It took us quite few days before we finally got Juliet's. It was less than she expected, but given all she had to go through while she was preparing for and sitting those exams I think it is still very good. The headteacher agrees with me. However, the marks she got were not enough to get her into a good secondary school. So 2 days after returning from the coast I was on the road again looking for a good school for Juliet.



Juliet reaching for the sky :D



Catch Up

I have really neglected my blog recently so it is time for a catch up.

December was quite a busy month for me - had to fly to London all of a sudden for 10 days but this enabled me to bring majority of the stuff donated by the Bearwood Primary School pupils (from Wokingham). The children collected lots of school uniforms, stationery and toiletries for MCCH kids - I carried 3 massive suitcases with me back to Nairobi and the kids were thrilled to receive the gifts.


Our primary school kids (up to class 5) in their new uniforms

 

Kids receiving the gifts from UK

Dring December there are many well-wishers coming to visit our children, bringing Xmas gifts. The kids also get to go to few places, i.e. an event organised by the Asian community in Nairobi for 10 children homes - they send buses to pick everyone from wherever they are located and bring them to the event location. The kids have an opportunity to sing and dance in front of the others, are given breakfast and lunch. There are also fun activities for the kids, i.e. horse or camel riding, face painting, bouncy castle, etc... Each child also receives a xmas gift and the orphanage is also given flour, oil, rice etc. Our kids had a lot of fun that day and so did I. The only downside was that my face got terribly burnt that day - I was so busy with the children that I forgot about the sunscreen and didnt realise how strong the sun actually was until it was too late... The following morning I couldn't even open my eyes properly as my face was quite swallen. I had to stay indoors for a few days as even little bit of direct sun was causing a lot of pain for me.

Everyone had their face painted

Some of our kids riding a camel :)



Mercy & Mary (too afraid to ride a horse or a camel ;)



Mary & I with the event organisers receiving gifts for MCCH (including a Xmas tree :)

We also had a visitor from UK - Fleur, who decided to spend her Xmas with our children. The kids were thrilled to have her here. I was also very happy about Fleur's visit as I had to travel to Mombasa over Xmas period - I knew Fleur would do a great job with the kids and from all the stories I heard she did keep them entertained all the time she was there and the kids are really missing her now. THANKS SO MUCH Fleur, you are a star :)

It is easy to see how much kids love Fleur

End of the school year

The Form 4 students finished their exams (the A level equivalent) a couple of weeks ago and now will have to wait until February to find out their results and discover whether their are able to continue their education at a university. In the meantime they have left Motherly Care to stay with their relatives.

I am not sure if I mentioned this before but Motherly Care is not just an orphanage - we help poor families to educate their children - the secondary schools are not free in Kenya and therefore many families cannot afford it.

This week also remaining classes finished the end of year exams and on Thursday was the last day of school. Most of the children with relatives have left and wil return in January when the new school year begins.

This was a very busy week for me - first I had to go to the immigration office and extend my visa... I did not go to plan and as a result I am flying back to London this morning just for a few days so I can return on a new visa... On Tuesday I went with Juliet (the latest arrival at Motherly Care) to St. Teresa's School where one of my friends (and a former streetboy) was holding an event for children showing documentaries about children's rights. Juliet was rescued a couple of months ago and she has been through a lot, there is a documentary being produced based on her story. She now wants to help other children to avoid what happened to her... On Wednesday we went back to St. Teresa's but this time with a group of 19 MCCH children as they were performing during the event - singing, dancing, etc... It was a really good day, the kids really enjoyed themselves but I was exhausted at the end of it... And then on Thursday I had to be back in town with Juliet again as we were going to work on the documentary with the Alessandra, who is putting it all together. It took us over 4 hrs to return back to Ruai and we arrived after it was already dark - sthg that I really try to avoid but this time we had no choice... I did arrange for 2 boys to come and meet us as soon as we got off the matatu though as it would be dangerous for us to walk alone in the dark - it is about 30 min walk, there is no lights on the way and we had no torch... Luckily we arrived home safely.

On Friday I finally managed to meet with Maria - it has been a very long time since I saw as she is always working... We spent quite a few hours talking and catching up on everything. She is going to Switzerland in feb next year to volunteer there (working with old and disabled people) so she was in town sorting out her visa etc...

And now I am at the airport waiting for my flight to London...

The trip

The trip to the coast was really good although it did have some challenges, first one being the severe rains that delayed our arrival in Mombasa by more than 8 hrs... I like travelling on the train but being stuck on it for almost 24hrs and in very hot and humid conditions is not fun even for such train lover as I am...

While at the coast, I visited 2 projects - a children's home in Bamburi and a school in Kilifi. The projects are really well run and I was very impressed by the way they work with and support the communities. It gave me even more ideas of what can be done when there is enough money coming in and good management in place with people devoted to what they are doing, I hope one day Motherly Care can become a great project like this also...

Mombasa was very very hot and so busy and polluted that only thing to differentiate it from Nairobi was the heat and the ocean near by. And the ocean was great - the beach and the water fantastic.

I made new friends and was very happy staying there. However, the trips to town were an experience of its own - the matatu drivers are even more crazy than those in Nairobi, the conductors try to squeeze 20 people in the vehicle designed for only 14... travelling was not a nice experience.

I went to see Fort Jesus and was surprised to find a tribute to Polish soldiers there...

I was originally planning to fly back to Nairobi but to save money I went back on the bus instead... And it was not bad at all - I paid for the luxury coach (which was only £5 more than the normal coach - £15 for the trip) and it had air conditioning, a loo and some snacks during the journey. We arrived back in Nairobi on time which was also great as I wanted to be back before it gets dark...

What like the most about returning back home is the welcome I get from the children.

Sonja & Justin

Last week we hosted Sonja & Justin at Motherly Care - a couple from UK. It was very nice to have visitors here for a week - especially that they are a great couple and they did some great work here. Justin, with a help of local person (whom he named Charlie - as a much easier name to remember than what he was actually called LOL), built a new chicken coop for our chicken project - currently we have 1500 chickens here (they start the slaughtering tonight so the first batch can be sold in the morning...) - this is the initiative to help us get money for the staff salaries as we are still struggling with that). Sonja is a huge animal lover so apart from spending her time with the children she was also helping with the goats and feeding the chickens :)
It was also nice for me to have them here - it was great to have someone to talk to from the same background and culture. Dont get me wrong - I am at least half Kenyan now but it is always nice to have someone who understands your way of thinking :)

I was playing a tour guide on 2 trips to town. Thanks to that I got a chance to finally go and see the elephants :) On the way back to Ruai after the 1st trip, while we waited for the taxi to pick us up, I started talking to two street boys - one was 8 and the other 12 years old. I shared some food with them and they really wanted me to take them to Motherly Care with me (they told me that they live on the streets and sleep under a car...). I really wanted to take them with me but unfortunately it is not just as easy as that. You cannot bring a child from the street and mix in with the children from the orphanage. Luckily, I have recently met someone who is rescuing children from the streets and he promised to help me find them and take them to a rescue centre (they would need to stay there first and then we would find an orphange that could take them in). This makes me feel much better as I was really sad just leaving them there. And it was then when I decided I wanted to learn more about what can be done to help children, especially those ones forced to live on the streets. Hopefully I can succeed in my mission to help as many children as possible.

Tomorrow we are travelling together to Mombasa :) It takes about 14-16 hrs on the train but it is much better than the coach and I actually really like that journey. The train goes through Tsavo National Park and if you wake up early enough you can see a really lovely sunrise - and if you are lucky, the elephants...
Whilst in Mombasa I am going to visit 2 more project and I am hoping to get some tips that we can use at Motherly Care. It will also be a nice mental break as lately I have been quite stressed out. I am really looking forward to it. Although I took the train to Mombasa last year, I didn't actually spend any time there as we travelled on to another place. It will be really nice to explore the city :)
However, before I get there I have to get through all the mud around here - it's been raining since last night and although it stopped for a short while (just enough time for me to dry my washing :), it is now raining again... I really dont like the mud, it is so difficult to walk anywhere... On teh other hand - when it does not rain it is unbelievably dusty! LOL

My kids are just so great

I was totally overwhelmed about my kids' reaction to my return to Motherly Care this afternoon. I was only away for 1 night and I definitely did not expect for them to miss me too much but the moment I arrived I was welcomed by so many smiling faces and hand shakes and "So nice you are back" comments... It was so lovely. Samuel - a boy with whom I spend quite a lot of time as he is always around the guest house (where I am staying) feeding chickens and attending to other chores - seemed the most happy with my return - he did not want to leave my side and was very keen on showing how much he missed me - by bringing me some sliced tomatoes with salt (which he prepared on his own), by emptying my bin, even by ensuring that the leftover water which I boiled to make some tea was covered in case I needed it later... And he is only 11... He loves to read so whenever he is free I give him a story book to read in my room.
All this made feel absolutely great and definitely helped me overcome yet another low spell lasting since beginning of last week.

Today, again, we were visited by John Bravo - a scout who is helping us to introduce some more activities at Motherly Care, i.e. working with beads, sports and scouting. He is the one who is currently teaching me and providing a lot of materials about the whole process of rescuing children from child labour and the streets... I am very excited about all of this as I want to be able to reach out to as many children as possible.

John wanted to show our children the "Stolen Childhoods" documentary (we have already seen 2 different videos in previous weeks) so we proceeded to Motherly Care. Again I was greeted by many children running from all sides just to hug me - an absolutely amazing feeling. I spent the entire afternoon with children in my arms and on my lap, by my feet... it was a great end to quite a challenging week. I cannot describe the feeling but I did not want to let go of any of them and was quite sad when they eventually had to go to have their supper...

I brought some banana cake with me today and since there were many children around me this afternoon, it was finished in seconds but my children were so happy with such a small gift... I am now very excited about organising my delayed b'day party for next month - I am definitely bringing a huge cake, there must be hotdogs as children absolutely love it and I am thinking that I should also arrange some ice cream for them... I want this celebration to stay in their memories for a very very long time... :) yes, it is making me feel really good when I can treat my children to sthg they might have not tried before or sthg that they get very rarely and that might be perceived as a selfish reason to be doing that but I love the feeling I get when I see so many happy faces around me. I have been very strict with them lately and since we are so severely underfunded I cannot be doing things like this very often but on this one occasion I am going to spoil them as much as I can :) After that I will have to concentrate all my energy on fundraising and learning all about helping children living on the streets...

Rescuing Emmanuel (Len Morris, 2008): USA

Rescuing Emmanuel (Len Morris, 2008): USA

Form 4s day trip

As our Form 4 students have been working very hard recently revising and preparing for their final exams, I wanted to reward them a little. As very soon they will be leaving Motherly Care I wanted to do sthg with them that they will remember for a long time – they wanted to go on a trip but I knew they didn’t have the funds to do so. I am trying to rally economise while I’m here to make sure that my money can last for a long time but I couldn’t resist paying for the trip for them – it will probably be the last reward that they get from Motherly Care. Obviously we will now be helping them to find work or funds for college but most probably they will not get an opportunity to do sthg as a group.

I hired a people carrier and we set of to town on Monday morning. We started with the National Museum – from what I could see the students (I keep calling them kids but they are adults already!) really enjoyed it. At the museum we also went to the snake park – this is not sthg that I particularly enjoyed but as they really wanted to go there so I gave in – after all it was a treat for them J

After the museum we were supposed to go to the National’s Park Animal Orphanage but we stopped at Uhuru Gardens on our way so we could have some lunch. It was really nice there and we decided to take some photos with the monument. After only taking a couple of shots we were approached by the park’s security and told that what we are doing is illegal as we are supposed to pay Ksh5000 (that’s sthg like £45)! This was absolutely ridiculous – we argued with the guard by he was not really listening. He asked one of the teachers to follow him to the office. When they returned we were told that indeed, in order to take photos in that place you must pay the fee – everyone was really outraged and we decided to talk to the guard again. For some reason he would not come close enough to us so we could talk it over. I then decided that if he doesn’t want to come to talk to me then I will go to talk to him. When I approached him with one of the teachers I asked why he just doesn’t come and tell me what the problem is (it was pretty obvious that the reason why he was so persistent that we pay the fee was the fact that I was white and he assumed that I had money). I was then told that he cannot speak English but if we give him some cash he will let us go. I was not really shocked – sthg like this is very common here. I did not cave in though and told him if he really insists that we pay the fee then I will just delete the photos that we have taken. I think he realised that he would not get any money out of me that he could use for himself and all of a sudden he let us go without paying the fee or deleting the photos.

As we already finished the snacks that we had, we decided to leave that place before they try to charge us for anything else. We proceeded to the National Park. As usual, because I am a foreigner – regardless to the fact that I am a volunteer not a tourist – I was really ripped off when it came to pay for the tickets – the children paid Ksh50, the teachers Ksh100 and for me? Well – Ksh1240! To be honest in my opinion that place is not worth paying so much money – it is much better to go to the elephant orphanage as you can interact with the animals much more there, but hey, it was the treat for the children and they wanted to go there – and they really enjoyed it.

As we didn’t have any money left in our budget, it was time to go home. However, the children really did not want to go back just yet. Instead we went to do some window shopping at a new shopping mall. It was so funny when I asked them to go up the escalator – they have never seen anything like that and were really afraid ;) the same thing with the lifts – they found it really amazing and we went up and down several times attracting a lot of attention. At least they were dressed in school uniforms so people knew that they were students and not a bunch of crazy adults ;)

I was absolutely shattered when we returned. I just wanted to shower and go to bed – and it was only 7.30pm! But there was another challenge waiting for me: about 20 min after we returned the power went off so I had to shower (and when I say that I mean bathe in a small plastic basin and 1 small bucket of water) just with candle light. The joys of simple life… ;)

Last night the Form 4s stayed up all night praying for good results in their exams – they start tomorrow. I wish them best of luck.

Today is a national day in Kenya – Kenyatta Day. Kenyatta Day is a day celebrating Kenya's freedom, named after their founding president Jomo Kenyatta.

Daily challenges

I cant believe I have been here 7 weeks already, the time is really flying by. I am so glad that I have decided to spend more time here and to get even more involved with day to day running of this place. There are many challenges here, money is always the top one but not the only one. At Motherly Care there are children from many different backgrounds; some of them only come to attend the school during the day, some are staying during the school terms but go back home to their relatives during holidays, the others are orphans or those whose mother’s are prostitutes… Those with relatives are admitted to Motherly Care as otherwise they would not go to school because the families cannot afford it. There are also few children coming from the IDP (Internally Displaced People) Camps.

Just before I arrived in Kenya, a little girl – Rebecca, was brought by the police to Motherly Care – she was found abandoned on someone’s doorstep. She is cared for well here by the staff as well as other children.

Every time the children misbehave I try to talk to those involved and make them understand their mistakes. It is not easy as they are scared that they will get beaten – this is the most common way of disciplining the children in Kenya – especially in schools. I do assure them that I will not beat anyone but I can still see the fear in their eyes… I now have the challenge of coming up with meaningful punishments for the most severe offenders and I can tell you that it is a huge challenge for me.

I am very happy though because I can see that I am getting through to some of the children already – they now started to come to me to share their concerns and to tell me if there is sthg going wrong or someone planning to do sthg wrong. It’s only just the beginning, as some of the children are not so happy about me being here now that they realised that it’s not all just about fun and nice food. I really wish I could just have fun with them every day but ensuring that they are brought up in a proper way and educated well is my top priority. I hope that they will understand it sooner rather than later. I care about all of them very much and I am determined to succeed in making this place better.

I have also decided not to fly back home for Xmas and stay here until April. That will of course depend on whether my visa can be extended by that much. I am quite hopeful as I know that there are many volunteers coming to Kenya for 12 months and they are able to get their visas so I should also be ok :)

Our kids just completed their midterm exams and have the half term holiday for few days… The Form 4 students will start their final exams on Thursday – they have been working very hard revising in last 2 months, preparing for the exams. I hope that they all do very well. We only have 7 students in Form 4 which means that they have to take their exams at another school as there need to be min of 25 students to be counted as the examination centre.

This month we were really lucky - we were very short of money to pay the salaries and just as I was about to start panicking I noticed that there was a substantial sum of money paid into the MCCH bank account in UK. And although we were still short of the full amount needed, it really helped us this month with the expenses - THANK YOU SO MUCH JAY for all your help. I cannot even begin to explain how much your support means to us.

Cultural Day at Motherly Care

On 24th of September we celebrated the annual cultural day at Motherly Care. On that day many of the children create various groups and perform different songs and dances according to which tribe they are from. There are many tribes in Kenya and tribalism is a major problem in political as well as the every day life.
At Motherly Care we celebrate the roots of our children though and very often kids from one tribe help to perform the others – this year we had Kisii, Louhya, Massai, Kikuyu and Embu tribes performing. The children were all dressed up in kangas and had their faces painted. Those that weren’t taking part in performances were the spectators. We had a lot of fun. This year though I was not able to take part in the dancing due to my ankle still giving me problems (and Thank God for that excuse! I am not a very good dancer ;)

To make the day a little nicer I bought the ingredients for maandazi, some juice and biscuits. The kids were very happy with that :) The unfortunate thing was that due to the lack of funds we were not able to organise the cooking part of the Cultural Day – normally the children, apart from performing, would also have an opportunity to cook different dishes from their tribes – the food varies depending where in Kenya you go. Nevertheless, it was a lovely day and the kids had a lot of fun.

I will post some videos on the children dancing and singing when I manage to get a better internet connection – I am using a pay as you go service and uploading a video would be very expensive… Hopefully I can arrange sthg soon.

It was such a busy week - but so fulfilling... :D

This week we were really happy to host a team of 4 dentists and a nurse from the US accompanied by a local dentist. The team came to Motherly Care to examine and treat our children. I was very glad I had the opportunity to be part of their team for the time they spent at the orphanage. I guess you can say I was the receptionist :) but working with them really reminded me of the job at NCR - arranging, organising, coordinating, ensuring we had correct info, etc... We were so busy that I did not have time to eat or a drink... It did not matter though, I have really enjoyed it, especially that it all resulted in all of our children examined and treated by the dentists and having their teeth cleaned. The kids were also taught about the oral hygiene, how to use the dental floss and all got new toothbrushes, paste and floss - none of our children knew what flossing was...

I also did some more teaching as class 4 was left with no teacher as 2 of our staff are sick... I'm concentrating my efforts on maths and English - I plan to do more work with those children from next week, even if the teachers are back as I really enjoy it and I believe it will really help the children, especially that soon they will have to do their exams...

All of this is not happening without challenges - main one being the children's expectations... So far all my trips to the orphanage meant bringing lots of gifts, especially food... and this time, as I need to preserve the money I have for the most pressing issues I am not able to do this any more... But I think the more time I spent there, the more they understand that I am only trying to help and that it is necessary that we prioritise what we do next... I try to speak to them often and I am already seeing a change in some. One main thing about our children is that they all come from very different and very difficult backgrounds so working with them is not an easy job... There's also a language barrier... - as many of them did not start their education until arriving at MCCH, the level of English is very poor... I am really hoping I can improve this.

I have started to buy daily newspaper so the Form 4 children can read it and by doing that stay tuned to what is happening in their country as well as practice their English. We are going to have weekly discussions about the current events and as soon as I get the new aerial cable for our TV they will also be watching evening news every day.

The situation in Kenya has started to worry me quite a bit - there has been many killings - 7 very brutal ones in last 7 days in Nairobi alone... There are cases of human body parts trade for witchcraft... It is all very disturbing... I am trying to stay at the orphanage or Jane's house and not even go to town at the weekend as I prefer not to tempt the fate...

Today I did some calculations on my spending and, without counting the money that I spent on things for MCCH, I realised that I live on less than £2.50 a day :D this is all thanks to Jane as she is letting me stay at her house and makes sure that I don't go hungry... My weekly expenses only consist of groceries for when I go to MCCH, newspapers and mobile top up really... very rarely I buy anything else... I guess this is gonna be a really good rehab for me :) staying away from shopping hasn't been very difficult though... I have all I need for my work here...

I will post some more photos soon...

The challenge continues

The scary night incident has not been repeated so far, much to my relief. However, I am not spared the stress as there are many issues here which need to be resolved asap but due to the luck of funds they keep dragging on... On Thursday morning we had a visit from the electricity company - it was due to the unpaid bill for last 3 months - as a result we were cut off... Luckily, on Friday Mary managed to convince them to reconnect us but they only did it under a condition that this week we sign an agreement with them about how to reduce the debt. To be totally honest, I have no idea how we are going to do that as we simply have no money, not only to spare but just to cover the essential monthly expenses like staff salaries and bills... I am very stressed over this. I have however started to monitor how we are using the electricity and look for ways to reduce the costs... This will not make the problem go away though - we still need more donors and finding them has been a real struggle.

I was supposed to come back to Motherly Care on Sunday but the driver has not showed up yet again (we pay him very little and it is quite likely that he has found a better job - it is quite common for people just not turn up). I asked Mary to look for a new driver as the one we had was very unreliable - it will be a difficult task though for the pay that we are offering.

Because the driver did not come to work on Sunday, we could not collect the food from Uchumi (this is a supermarket near Mary's house that donates all unsold fruits and veg to us). Luckily for us, when Mary came to collect me on Monday we went there and all the stuff for MCCH was still there waiting to be collected.

The food that we get are the rejects and a lot of it is half rotten - so you can just imagine what a horrible task it is to go through boxes of vegetables that are going off... But if it means that we get food for children for free, we have to do it. I have attracted a lot of attention as you never see white people doing this sort of job, but I wanted to get this done asap so we could get to Ruai before it gets dark. There was a lot of stuff - pineapple, watermelon, spinach, beans, potatoes, carrots, etc...

These days we do not have such a big problem with feeding the children as we get food donated from few places. The problem is the lack of money for petrol, salary for the driver and also the vehicle. The car that we have is ancient - really on it's last legs and it is costing us a lot to keep it going but as we do not have money to get a better one, we simply don’t have a choice. I must tell you - every time I need to travel in this car I am worried that we will break down on the way - and the areas that we need to drive through to get to Ruai from Nairobi are not very safe... I am very glad each time I reach my destination...

Scary night

I have finally made it to Ruai and was very happy to see the children. They were very happy to see me too and straight away I was surrounded by so many of them - everyone wanted to hold my hand or get a hug. They kept touching my hair and then started braiding it - it was quite a painful process and I lost a lot of hair as a result when I tried to bring it back to normal. But still, it was fun spending time with the kids after such long time.

I spent the rest of the evening talking with Stanley, the manager of MCCH about various things that I want to work on whilst I am here. I didnt even realise when it got really late, we were so absorbed in the conversation. As he needed to get up by 5am we decided to continue our discussion the following day.

I was in bed around 12.30am, I am staying at the guest house where Stanley, Hilda and few of the children are also staying. Ruai is very rual and there are not so many houses around. It is usually very quite except for the airplane noise...

I fixed my mosquito net, locked the door to my room and turned off the lights. Just this in itself was pretty scary for me as I just hate to be alone in the room at night, I think it is some sort of a fobia... I was lying down and listening to the noises outside. All seemed OK... I must have drifted off for less than an hour when I suddenly woke up. I did not know why I woke up but again got really worried about all theh darkness. Just as I was hoping to go back to sleep I heard the noise made by the front gate... Alarmed I started to listen out for more sounds and to my terror what I heard next was the gate to the back of the house. I was completely paniced by then but unsure of what I should do. I was lying in bed, terrified. I could hear someone walking around the house and outside my window. All of a sudden I felt very claustrophobic - it was the mosquito net, the room everything, I was finding it hard to breathe... There are bars in all of the windows so nobody can come in through that but still I found no comfort in that... And then I heard someone trying to open the back door... I really wanted to scream but was too afraid to... Luckily they did not manage to get in and et again I heard someone walk around the house... It was too much to take. The moment I knew that they must have been on the other side of the house I jumepd out of my bed, put the lights on, got out of the room, turn on the dining room lights on and run to Hilda's room to wake her up. However, when I enetred her room I couldnt find the light switch and I could not see which bed she was sleeping in. Instead I just saw the children sleeping there and I really did not want to scare them. Everyone in the house was fast asleep. I decided to wait it out. Too afraid to go back to my room (as it was just opposite the back door), I stayed in the hallway for over an hour trying to decide whether I should wake anyone up or not. Finally around 4am when I did not hear anything else I managed to go back to bed but I left the lights on and could not sleep. I could hear many dogs barking in the distance... I was still scared.
Finally just before 5 am, when I knew that many people will be getting up I was brave enough to close my eyes and finally fell asleep.

As a result I am really really tired today and even more terrified about spending 3 more nights here this week... Maybe the tiredness will help me sleep through the night... I have many weeks to go and I dont want it getting in my way of achieving what I set out for myself.

I spoke to Stanley and Hilda about what happened. We will put on some security lights outside and try to close the gate better. I also want to get a dog, I really believe that we need to make this place more secure. It is not easy though when the funds are so limited and everything costs...

On the happier note - seems like the cold season is finally over - we have had 3 great sunny days now and it is very hot here today.

Sthg to think about

I came across this today and I really like. I think it sums up quite well what I have been doing since last year...

"Twenty years from now you will be more disappointed by the things you didn't do than by the ones you did do. So throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbor. Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover." Mark Twain

I still havent been to see the children as it was time to slaughter the chickens for sale (it's an income bringing project that we started about 2 months ago) and I really did not want to see this. Instead, I am meeting with a potential volunteer tomorrow morning. Hopefully she will agree to spend some time at the orphanage and help with the teaching as the school is starting on Monday and one of the teachers has just informed us that she is not coming back. Now we have to find someone for her place very fast...

More in few days time...

Finally in Kenya

I finally arrived in Kenya on Sunday morning only to be greated by fog and chilly wind... I didnt actually realised that the plane was landing until the wheels touched the ground...

I have not had a chance to go to see the children yet but I will be going there later this week. I plan to spend Monday - Friday at the orphanage every week.

I did manage to bring almost 2 suitcases of stuff for the children (clothes, shoes, pens, soap etc...). Big "Thank You" to all that have donated various items for the children.

I did meet with June (my little Kenyan sis :) though before she goes to college in Kakamega. It was nice to catch up on things - after all we have not seen eachother for 5 months... I am already looking forward to visiting her there :)

The weather here is very strange and I have to wear jeans and a jumper, and still feel quite chilly. I am really hoping that the heat and sunshine will return very soon.

While I am here you can contact me via email: lil2110@hotmail.com, facebook or mobile - UK Number 07939576727 or Kenyan Number +254 716238341.

Please do remember that as always we are desperate for donations so if you are able to help, please get in touch. We are especially keen to get sponsors for the children as we believe this will be the best way of regular support for MCCH.

I will write more very soon, until then keep well.